Gone is the sincerity
June 18, 2008 I think I'm paranoid and complicated, For a minute there I lost myself 17 CommentsI find it stupid that I need an off-line journal because I can’t write everything here anymore. Yes, I can express my anger, my frustrations, my joys and what uRMa does, where I’m going and what I’m doing, but not what I’m actually feeling. Can’t talk about my crushes, can’t bitch about my flat-mate, can’t be myself.
I hate to always hide behind phrases that only I understand, to mask my feeling with neutral words. And no, goddamn it, I won’t put a password on it. I’ve met way too many nice people cause of this blog to make it a private one.
It was so easy to write things down, get them off my mind, and then just hit “Publish”. Now I’m always thinking: “Are they going to read this? Cause if they are, I can’t write about it anymore.” Bleah.
It’s not fair. It really isn’t.
