After much thought and consideration, I’ve reached the conclusion that actually I’m not a masochist. I’m quite the opposite: I’m a sadist, all right. Inflicting pain on others - that’s my life goal.

Me needs help. Mental help.

Has anyone died of black tea overdose? No? Well, I think I might be the first one, then.

I will NOT marry, I will NOT have children. Stop telling me I’m going to change! I won’t!

I so hate my new hair colour! Can hardly wait do dye it and colour it orange again!

- Everything alright?
- Fine.
- Why are you standing there like that?
- I think I need mental help.
- Why?
- I feel happy. I’m just not quite equipped.

Ally McBeal

No, I’m not equipped. I’m so used to complaining all the time that when everything’s right, I have to make it feel wrong just so I can complain about it. And I simply hate the fact that this is going so well, that it’s so ‘how it’s supposed to be’. Where’s the incompatibility, where are those small things that I hate, where is the ‘uhm, I don’t think this is working’?!

Even distance feels so bloody right. No ‘I’m dying to see you’-s and no ‘we saw each other the other night, I don’t feel like seeing you tonight as well’-s. Once a fortnight works perfectly for me. And when we’re together we do all that stuff that normal couples do, the ones that I’ve missed and I thought I wasn’t going to do again for a long time. Even the trips we plan seem so doable, so ‘we’re going to have so much fun!’

This is so normal and right that it makes me wanna puke.

*hit me, please!*

If one day I kill someone, it will be a postal worker.

SERENITY NOW!!!

I’m giving away my ability to daydream and believe it will actually come true. Does anybody want it?

I just burst into tears when I saw this.

It’s been such a long time

‘God, I hate this bitch!’
‘Are you coming to class next time?’
‘I bloody have to! ‘
‘Your ‘h’s look like ‘g’s.’
‘G g H h… You’re so serious ‘
‘Smiling takes lots of energy - and it gives you wrinkles.’

I promise I’ll write to you these days. I just have to gather all the courge I have in order to do that.

The best ideas I have are the ones that I dream about but don’t remember the next morning.