Oh yeah, I’m back!!! A biiiiiig thanks to Vic for coming over and fixing the settings of router and everything else. Thank you very, very, very much! You saved me

Well, now that I’m back online, I can go back to bed and study for my exams

Snobbish or not, my parents took me shopping in Debrecen. The city is only 160 km away from Baia Mare and I was surprised to find out that it’s the second largest city in Hungary. We stopped in the center of the city and we did just a bit of sightseeing. Everything there was quaint, but beautiful and I couldn’t stop smiling. In every shop we entered we were greeted by the shop assistants, not like in RO when they mutter hello and they act like you, the client, are a major pain in their butts. And they didn’t keep their eyes on you all the time, they let you take your time to look around. The client in me felt respected.

I also liked the way their blocks looked like. They were painted either blue or yellow or orange. They were colourful and happy and looked good. I’m sick and tired of seeing the same old grey blocks everywhere I go in RO. They all look alike: grey, ugly and depressing.

We did most of our shopping at a *kind of* miniPrix store but, hell, the clothes were better and cheaper than the ones you can find in such stores in RO. I feel in love with a Hungarian brand called VAU VAU *at least I think it’s Hungarian - I couldn’t find info about it on the net, and the label wasn’t of much help either*, and now I have a lovely pair of trousers and a cute bag *of course that’s not everything I bought! *

Anyways, the trip was definitely worth it and I can hardly wait to go again, most probably in March. Hungary rocks!

I’m feeling really good right now. Well, I’m exhausted, but that doesn’t count. It’s been one hectic day, but I’ve managed to do almost everything I had planned to, which is great.

I went Christmas-shopping and bought everything I wanted! Well, they weren’t actually the things I had on my list cause I found other things, nicer than what I had in mind ^_^ I’m so happy I’ve bought these cute presents for my friends and I hope they’ll like them too, cause that’s what really counts

Anyways, I went to and fro between Carturesti and Sala Dalles, I looked at hundred of things, I couldn’t decide what to buy, but in the end it was ok. And then I was so happy, so glad, in such an I-love-you-guys mood.

I can’t believe how lucky I am. Mum was in town with business and she took me shopping and I ended buying a very colourful skirt and an adorable green cardigan I can hardly wait to wear them! And that will happen this Friday, at the office Christmas party. Uuuuh, my very first office party

Oh well, I’ll be off now. I’m hungry and tomorrow I have to get up early in the morning [at about 9 o’clock ] so I can get to a post office in the other part of the city to pick up the Threadless T-shirts Laura and I ordered. Heck, it’s going to take forever to get there, but I want my T-shirt!

Ps. I think the people living upstairs are having sex. Not funny!

One thing’s for sure: Mum should come and visit more often I didn’t have to pay for anything this weekend, my fridge is full of food and I ate cooked food!!! Plus, she bough lots of other things I needed. So, thanks Mum

I started work on Monday. Guess what? I love it!!! I have my own desk, a laptop, an official e-mail address and a very nice boss. I’m totally excited about this! And I don’t feel tired at all having to stay there 4h/day and really work Maybe that’s because I love what I’m doing and it’s not something I have to do, but something I want to do. Tomorrow I’m finishing correcting a book and then I’ll start editing, which will be more demanding, more stressful and more fun! I can hardly wait!!!! ^_^ Yes, the kid has a real job now

And the funny thing is that I feel more organised. I know I have to go to school and then to work and suddenly I feel I’m actually doing something with my life, that I’m not just wasting my time. I love the feeling of being useful. Ok, the part with getting up early in the morning is no fun at all, but I won’t bitch about it anymore. The other part which I don’t like is related to the Internet - every evening, instead of sitting in bed and reading, I waste my time online *note to self: you know you have little free time now, use it wisely!!!*

I’m starting to freak out only thinking about Christmas presents. I have no idea what to buy. I’m lousy when it comes to buying presents I buy things I’d like, not what my friends would like. And when I try buying things I think they’d like… yeak, disaster strikes I’m a hopeless case.

I should stop going to the bookcrossing meetings: I meet too many interesting guys there. The good part is that I’m having tea with one of them tomorrow afternoon. The bad part is that he’s way older than me *I have no idea how old he is exactly*, he’s a psychologist and he’s got dating potential Well, at least it’s not a date we’re having tomorrow. I can even picture the evening: me - nervous and talking a lot, gesticulating, forgetting what I wanted to say, telling only stupid *supposed to be funny* stories; him - reserved, thinking “what a fascinating patient she’d make”. Oh well, I’m just a kid, right?

At least I had a very nice evening today: I went to a restaurant with 3 well-known Romanian writers I don’t believe the people who say the wouldn’t like to meet writers/singers/actors etc cause that would ruin the image they have of them and their work. That’s crap! I find it fascinating to see how they really are, how they talk and act, how they dress and other things we common people do I try not to mix the person with his/her work, I try to be objective. I’m just so glad I have the opportunity to meet all these people, to talk to them. It’s like a dream come true

I’m off to bed now. Hope I won’t make a fool of myself tomorrow evening

*Belle and Sebastian - My wandering days are over

It was awesome!!! After two days of staying indoors, I finally got out. Went to school, actually enjoyed the classes, then spent 4h in Carturesti. I had to wait like forever for A. to show up, but he brought me a flower *how in the world did you know it was my favourite flower?!* and he was instantly forgiven It was kind of strange spending that much time together after last week, but it was nice. And he didn’t even mind the bitching and the girlie talk

Can you believe I actually didn’t feel the need to drink another cup of tea for the rest of the day? Apparently I had enough for just one day Anyways, I bought a *kind of* matching cup for my beautiful teapot and another bag of tea - it’s called autumnal *something*. Hope it’s good It sounded like the kind of tea I’d like to drink on a crappy autumn day - just stay indoors, read a good book, enjoy my tea and tell the weather outside that I can’t bring me down anymore cause I’ve learnt how to deal with it.

*I’ve changed the name of the teapot; it’s called Butter and the teacup it’s called, uhm, Cup But together they are Buttercup, which is a lovely name, flower and cartoon character - yup, I’m really proud of myself for finding such a nice name*

Tomorrow, errr, today is going to be just one of those hectic days. I have classes from 8 o’clock *and yeah, I’m going!*, then I have 4h of English translations *we’re learning Economy & Law definitions and terms and it really, really sucks!*, then it’s off to the publishing house to get the next book I’m supposed to correct. There’s a literature festival starting tomorrow at 5 o’clock and I really want to go, and I will, but Adi asked if I’d like to go to a movie with him and I said yes, so I’ll have to leave early from the festival. But I owe Adi one - I was supposed to go a bloggers’ party on Sunday, but I completely forgot about it and I didn’t even tell him I wasn’t going, so it’s time I made up for it.

You’ll never guess what we talked about today during the German classes It was all about trips and places we have visited or we’d like to see. Ironic, isn’t it? Apart from the regular bullshit in the coursebook, I really liked this quote: “Reisen ist heute wie Fernsehen. Von allem jüngere Menschen die mit dem Fernsehen aufgewachsen sind, “zappen” durchs Leben, im Last-Minute-Flug von Destination zu Destination.” I’m too lazy to translate it, but I totally agree with it Travelling has never been easier

After my Just like heaven -The Cure and All I need - Radiohead obsessions from this week *I don’t even want to see this week’s charts on last.fm; I’m too young to have a heart attack!*, I found this nice old song on my computer.

You want to burn your bridges? I’ll help you start the fire.
You want to disappear? I got the manual right here.
You say you want my help? I can’t help myself.
You want my help? I can’t help myself.

Take me with you when you go now. Don’t leave me alone.
I can’t live without you. Take me with you, take me with you when you go.

I’ll leave you with Morphine and Take me with you.

Ps. Ramona told me she had sent me a letter some weeks ago but I didn’t receive it Where’s my letter, dudes??? She even bought a bookmark for me; it had my name written in Japanese. I want the letter from my Ramona and my bookmark!!!

Remember the foreigners I told you about? Uhm, guess they’ll stay at my place in the end. I’m excited about this!

And I’m going to Braila to visit my grandpa. Talk to you soon!

Yummy, yummy, yummy! The cake is delicious, the milk is cold and I still have some chocolate left. I’ve reached an agreement with myself: I’m allowed to eat only 1 bar of chocolate/2 days. Of course, donations are accepted and they are not part of the agreement , but don’t let my good self know that

I don’t know why the heck I am so happy and shinny because nothing special has happened today. Plus, I still have homework to do and there are 2 exams and a presentation coming up next week. I hate myself when I’m in this “I couldn’t even care less” mood, but I’ll get over it.

Well, in fact, this blog entry is supposed to be about plans; about my near future/summer plans. I told Puck I’d go with her to Sibiu, at a book fair. I’d simply love to go, but I don’t think I’ll have money. I went to the seaside this month and though I stayed only for a night there, the train tickets + food + other things kind of emptied my card I know Mum still has some money to send to me and Dad’s coming over next week [free food! cooked food! good food! ], but I still don’t think I’ll make it I like so much the idea of going to book fairs, especially in other cities but, as Adina told me, there’s BookFest coming up at the beginning of June and if I stay home I’ll be able to spare some money and buy more books at the fair. And she’s right. But now I don’t know how to tell Puck I’m not going I’m sure she’ll be disappointed. Oh well, I’ll find a way.

Then I’m going to Timisoara at the end of June. We talked about making a trip with the BookBlog team, but they didn’t seem that eager to go. Officially, I’ll be done with my exams in the last week of June and because I’m going to B’estival [I’m going to see Hooverphonic, Morcheeba and Faithless!!! ], I have to stay for another week here, in Bucharest, and not go home. I thought about going to the seaside [I hate going to the sea when everybody else is there; too many people, too hot, the sea is dirty etc and the last week of June is still kind of out of season], but I don’t have anyone with whom to go and, to tell the truth, I don’t fancy going on my own. So, I talked to Vali and Marius and they can hardly wait to see me Yeah, I’m definitely going to TM!

And I have other plans too. Vali said I can go with him this summer to Sighisoara and Peninunsula and Marius said we could go to Austria whenever I want. That is simply awesome! Mum has been bugging me to spare money and go abroad on holiday, but I told her I had no one to go with and now, now there’s Marius! I’m planning on going to Rosia Montana again this year, but I have to see who’s willing to come along. Any volunteers?

I think this move to Bucharest is the best thing which has happened to me! I have my own place, my own cat , a job I didn’t even dare of dreaming of, my relationship with Mum never seemed better and I’m able to see Mihnea as often as I want. And apart from all these, I’ve met some incredible people here! Yeah, there are certain drawbacks, but I don’t want to sadden myself. I’m keeping the sadness locked away, for some rainy, depressing days

Today I’m happy and nothing can bring me down

*Belle and Sebastian - Sleep the clock around

Woke up this morning with uRMa sleeping on my shoulder. I got out of bed, knocked over a bottle of juice, stepped on book catalogues, took a shower and smiled.

I can’t believe how good I have felt these last days. uRMa is an amazing cat! She makes me laugh, she keeps me company and I think in a cattish way she loves me too And I got a 10 at the German exam, I have another one on Wednesday, but that’s going to be way easier than any other one. Yeah, I’ve got as much free time as I want. The best part is that the publishing house gave me lots of book catalogues to read and chose books I find interesting. Of course I have to discuss them with my boss afterwards, but I still feel I have an important job to do It’s so much fuuuun: I just sit in the middle of the bed with all those catalogues spread around me, with a chocolate in one hand and a pen in the other hand and I read about books and mutter “this sounds pretty interesting” or “who the heck would like to read a book like this?”. I simply love my job! And Belle and Sebastian is the perfect spring-happy-mood band, so I keep listening only to it. Yeeey!!!

Ok, ok, enough with my bouncy mood. I’m going back to my books and my job

My mind is open
And my heart is full
I ain’t got any weight
That I can’t pull
And right now
I know that anything
Is possible

I had an interesting day. It started with me skipping the morning class [so sorry, Mum, but I really can’t wake up that early! ]. When I opened my eyes the sun was shining, the weather was sweet and I knew it was going to be an awesome spring day. And it was.

As I was washing my face, I recognised a smell that’s been haunting me for some time now. It was the smell of tap water and toothpaste, the smell of all my holidays. I know it’s stupid to associate such common smells with great memories, but I can’t help it. I remembered all those mornings, when I would wake up in hotel rooms with 3 or 4 other girls, how we would great each other and then went to the bathroom for a quick shower and to brush our teeth. Then we would go to have a quick breakfast and head to the beach. We would sunbathe, read and swim. Then we would return to our room and take a nap. In the afternoon we would go to the beach and just lie there. And then, at night we would go out and party till the next morning. And every location, every hotel I stayed at smelled of those things: tap water and toothpaste. I remembered Greece, Italy, San Marino, France, Turkey… I remembered all the fun I had had, all the things I had bought, all the crazy things I had done. Sweet, sweet memories

And at the bus station another wonderful thing happened. I was reading and waiting for the bus to come and when I looked up from the book, the bus was already there and a guy who was getting off the bus was looking at me and smiling. Before I could smile back he had already gone. I’m sure that the broad smile was addressed to me because there was nobody else behind me. I don’t know why he smiled, but I’m glad he did it. He brightened my day I had once these existential problems regarding the people I met on the street. I always look at people’s faces and there are these monologues going on in my head regarding the people I find interesting. And I wondere what people think about me, IF they do that, when they see me on the street. Do they think I have a funny/sad/ugly face? Do they think I need to brush my hair or iron my clothes? Do they like the way I dress or not? Don’t worry, I won’t go stopping people on the street and ask them what they think about me It’s just a curiosity, nothing more

A thing is for sure: I love my green Converse shoes [yes, the one you ALL like ]. It’s true that first love never dies No matter how much I like my new Converse, not matter how happy I was when Dana sent me the second pair, my first pair of Converse still kicks ass! I feel I could walk on for ever and ever… And I feel so light, so free… it’s awesome the feeling they give me!

And there was something else that made my day: the smell in the air. I could smell the spring, I almost could smell the summer. It was hot and windy today. I felt just like I do on regular summer afternoons: lazy and happy, with an incredible lust for life, daydreaming, simply wanting to hit the road and never stop; I felt excellent! And I want the summer to come! I want to go to Budapest [no, Roxa, not at Pepsi Sziget ], I want to wake up in the middle of the day, I want to eat the-bestest-ice-cream-in-the-world [an ice-cream that is homemade by some nice ladies from Baia Mare], I want to go to Tom&Jerry and drink 2l of Coke/night and spend quality time with my friends, I want to return home in the middle of the night, have a snack and then read till morning; I want to go to Borlesti and do nothing except read, eat and sleep. Grrrr… I want an eternal summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cause’ it feels like summer again
I was thinking that it just might never begin
After winter and spring
It’s good to have the sun on my face again

*The Wallflowers - Feels like summer again